ok this morning zwee and i were going through my facebook profile and then i saw my blog link attached to my profile lol. seems like a good time for me to be here especially with so many events happening

so we got married early Jan (and Feb) this year before the entire world went crazy with covid. yeah lucky us! but as much as i hope and assumed covid hasn't affected our lives as badly as others, it did impact myself quite abit? no one will be reading this anyways, so let me confess that my mental health ain't that good atm- i'm always anxious, scared, nervous and always over-thinking. basically i'm lost lol

i'm scrambling to find my own safe zone now because my safest zone at home has been taken over (unwillingly). i felt an intrusion to my privacy and i've given up because what can i do? other than feeling emotional about it every now and then, i've decided to find my new home with zwee. but a home needs to be built and it'll take us awhile. hence it will take me awhile before i settle down but i'll try!

nurturing my mental health also isn't that easy atm because body is going through heaps of changes now that restricts me from doing many stuff. but absolutely blessed to be going through this and i'm sure everything will be better after this. i wish i have my girlfriends with me physically for some support but thank god for technology.

also worrying about job security because anything can happen with current economic situation. but again this is something that every person in the world is going through now so i have to be blessed that it's not on our top list of things to worry right now.

counting our blessings in many ways. other than the issues mentioned above, life is going well for us. at least in auckland we don't have to wear face masks and we're free to go around without restrictions.

as much as i wish i'm home to take care and be with family atm, it is what it is and i will pray for the safety and wellbeing of all loved ones at home. i wish nothing but the best for each one of them.

hehloooo! suddenly remembered that i actually have a blog lol. felt a sudden urge to blog to keep up with things. in 2-3 years time, i think i will most probably thank myself for this.

so many things have happened recently, especially over the past 2 months.

for those of you who didnt know, i switched employer. its actually part of my contract, so technically i did not quit my job. my lifestyle had change quite significantly as well. i wake up at 6 everyday and reaches office at 8. and my sleeping time is probably around 10 every weekday night. 

this is me selfie-ing in the empty office cause i usually reach the office much earlier than everyone else. the floor is usually empty when i clock in. 

zwee and i made it a point to go for morning walk every sunday morning. actually its more of my plan, and he didnt have much choice but to go with me hahaa! about an hour of walk and then we go for breakfast. simple activity but so satisfying. we then head home and have our afternoon nap to make up for waking up early lolol.

i also attended a team building session for new employees not too long ago. was supposed to be held at some hostel, but (fortunately) due to unforeseen circumstances the venue was changed to a 5 star hotel instead! *jumps with joy! couldnt describe how excited i felt at that moment. and the best thing was we had buffet for all 3 meals!

gracie and i during our first meal. cant be thankful enough to have her to kick start our career together :* i'll probably be long gone if its not for her :$

and this was my team during the team building.

you see that pancake? that's probably like the best kimchi pancake ever. i kid you not. its from b-bap at nu sentral. we had dinner after work one of those days cause i had to work later than usual and he came to pick me up :*

btw, this may sound a little weird to hear, but i actually take the train home from work now. and i actually prefer the train over driving :O how much have i changed. i used to avoid taking train at all cost but now its the totally opposite. told you that alot had changed over these 2 months, and i foresee alot more changes to come :x

this is my team for my first rotation. we had kfc on my last day cause everywhere was super packed and they were tied up with work. so much love for them. they made my first 2 months so memorable and fun. kind of miss them now that i had left the team.

keeping in touch with my high school girlfriends. cycling at bukit cahaya shah alam. so tiring omg. i think i spend half the time pushing the bike instead of cycling hahaa. so many uphills. going downhill was fun though :D my butt ache after that cause the seats of the bike weren't really padded.

this was us on the morning of the interview. felt so good to go work together, although it was only for a day lol. totally melts my heart to see my boy suited up in formal clothes. i guess i have a thing for smart looking men :$

brought my brother to 76 for a haircut while i did my hair treatment. my hair was dry as grass -____- burnt a hole in my pocket though. but it was good bonding time with the brother. wished that i have naturally long silky hair so that i can stop spending money on my hair T___T

im so lost. i have no idea how to gather myself back this time. it only gets worse as time passes and every single part of my body is breaking down so badly. someone please guide me through this. someone pleaseeeeeeeeeee.

#throwback picture. third day of CNY today. feeling so empty inside suddenly cause im missing my grandmother. i hope she'll well up there. thank you grandma for watching all of us down here cause we're all doing so well. i love you grandma. do take good care of yourself wherever you are and always know we're all always missing you, always wishing that you're here with us.

boo. i misses australia. this is me walking on the streets in sydney with an ugly plastic bag, which i cant remember whats inside. hahaaa. most likely a bottle of water and snacks. i love eating snacks when i travel. cheat days while on vacation :D

cause i really really love this naughty hulk <3
goodnights everyone. a brand new week ahead. got to achieve what we have to achieve.
have funnnnnnnn!

a spontaneous decision to drive down to melaka in the afternoon just to satisfy the tummy. clearly not a good decision cause it was packed like sardines in jonker street and the jam there was horrendous. but it was a good bonding time with the family. i really really miss travelling.